I'm just going to type my thoughts right now. Do you ever wonder if all the hours and time you spend on your scrapbooking is worth it? Do your kids and family members really appreciate the thought, the work, the emotion spent on each and every page you create? Did I just waste a lot of time during my life over the last 6 years for nothing? Why am I doing this?
That is the question I am asking myself today after feeling rejected by Basic Grey. I know I'm putting myself out there by even posting this on my blog but I have always felt that putting my thoughts down on paper (or my blog, now) helps me feel better. I know my Basic Grey work is good. I know I can design and showcase papers well. What didn't they like about me? That brings me to this question.....
Should I quit?
After pondering that question now for the last few hours, I had to remind myself why I love this craft. I love creating memories for my family. I am passionate about photography and capturing every memory with my Nikon. I want my family to know how much I love them, years and years from now. I love the satisfaction of finishing a page and looking at it and feeling proud of what I created, considering I have never considered myself an artistic person. I love the people I've met through this hobby, and, yes, I know politics does play a part and sometimes it is who you know that makes decisions, but overall, the people in this craft are good and I enjoy sharing a little part of our lives with each other. So..
No, I'm not going to quit!
I'm determined now, more than ever, to create because I like to, not because I want someone else's praise or because I need to showcase some manufacturer's product. I love scrapbooking because it has taught me how to create memories that my family will cherish for years and years to come. They are not going to care if I was on Basic Grey's design team when they look at my page. They are going to read my little love notes to them and they are going to smile and remember that Mom loved them so much to follow them around during their ever waking moments with that camera even if she was a nuisance at the time. They will never doubt how much I love them.